Why? Because I desperately want to believe I can cancel out my sins.
Perhaps, even with a life weighed in the balance, I will die with red ink on my conscience. But I still want an opportunity to try. My past is behind me and I am no longer that person, yet I long to apply the salve of present kindness to the wounds of past wrath.
And the fact I cannot means the pain, and the stains, of my past cannot be salved or washed away. It saddens me.
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